February 7, 2015
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Over the past few years, I’ve begun to feel age. I feel it when I turn my left arm sideways to grab something or when I extend it over my over my head (torn rotator cuff), but I decided to … Continue reading
August 10, 2013
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Five When he ate malted-milk balls, he sucked the chocolate off first. Thinking you weren’t watching, he’d roll the candies from one side of his mouth to the other, making the sort of tiny noises you’d imagine a chipmunk would … Continue reading
December 4, 2012
by TRatner
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The beginning of the end Three weeks before my husband was admitted to inpatient hospice, he experienced an increase in bone pain. His daily medications were no longer easing his discomfort. I remember the initial comment from his hospice nurse, … Continue reading
September 19, 2012
by TRatner
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Looking Back During a recent rainy day in Phoenix, I began reading a journal I kept when my husband, Michael, was dealing with esophageal cancer. I remember when he bought me this compact purple cloth book with flowers … Continue reading
January 6, 2012
by TRatner
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Looking Back Part II The beginning of the end Two weeks before my husband was admitted to inpatient hospice, he experienced an increase in bone pain. His daily medications were no longer easing his discomfort. I remember the initial comment … Continue reading
August 4, 2011
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Unexpected Treasures mag·net (m g n t) n. An object that is surrounded by a magnetic field and that has the property, either natural or induced, of attracting iron or steel. An electromagnet. A person, a place, an object, … Continue reading
July 19, 2011
by TRatner
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MY MARRIED LIFE IN PHOTOS This is my husband and myself when we were happy—-*********************************** I’m married in the above photo. The pose is one of contentness as I surround myself with flowers in full bloom. My son-in-law took the photo at Michael’s surprise 65th birthday party—before … Continue reading
January 31, 2011
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January 1,2010 It’s the first day of the New Year. Just yesterday, I thought I was doing well, adjusting to the loss of losing my husband. I answered a questionnaire sent to me in the mail from Hospice of the Valley. … Continue reading
January 31, 2011
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A NEW YEAR December 19, 2010 Tonight is the Macayo holiday party—a catered affair on Camelback Mountain which Michael and I have attended for the past twelve years. I plan to shop at Nordstrom’s for a special dress for the … Continue reading
January 27, 2011
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November 25, 2010 It’s Thanksgiving day. I’m slow to wake, not wanting to think about the recent death of my husband, wanting to drift into a deeper sleep and dream about what was, what might have been. I think about … Continue reading