December 4, 2012
by TRatner
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The beginning of the end Three weeks before my husband was admitted to inpatient hospice, he experienced an increase in bone pain. His daily medications were no longer easing his discomfort. I remember the initial comment from his hospice nurse, … Continue reading
October 23, 2012
by TRatner
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Looking Back Part 2 Clips from a summer journal July 2, 2010 Chemo side-effects: Fatigue Lethargy Bloating Constipation Hiccups throughout day Wednesday evening (11 p.m.) Michael is still constipated. We drive to CVS to pick-up Milk of Magnesia, Miralex, a … Continue reading
January 6, 2012
by TRatner
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Looking Back Part II The beginning of the end Two weeks before my husband was admitted to inpatient hospice, he experienced an increase in bone pain. His daily medications were no longer easing his discomfort. I remember the initial comment … Continue reading
December 11, 2011
by TRatner
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October 31, 2011 Looking Back It’s Halloween night, but the outside lights are turned off. I don’t expect any ghosts or ghouls ringing my door bell in hopes of a treat. I’m upstairs in the study clicking away on the … Continue reading
November 12, 2011
by TRatner
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One Year Later November \ 2011 On a Monday afternoon, November 8, 2010, an ambulance attendant pulled into the circular driveway to bring my husband, Michael, to the Coronado House, an inpatient facility for end-of-life comfort measures. I knew when … Continue reading
November 2, 2011
by TRatner
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October 5, 2011 The Last Dance It’s not for me to say you love me; It’s not for me to say you’ll always care. Oh, but here for the moment, I can hold you fast And press your lips … Continue reading
August 4, 2011
by TRatner
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Unexpected Treasures mag·net (m g n t) n. An object that is surrounded by a magnetic field and that has the property, either natural or induced, of attracting iron or steel. An electromagnet. A person, a place, an object, … Continue reading
February 7, 2011
by TRatner
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January 29, 2011My cleaning frenzy began with the hallway closet. I scooped up three of my husband’s winter jackets and placed them over my right arm along with a corduroy sports jacket and two pairs of worn sneakers. Grabbing the … Continue reading
January 31, 2011
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A NEW YEAR December 19, 2010 Tonight is the Macayo holiday party—a catered affair on Camelback Mountain which Michael and I have attended for the past twelve years. I plan to shop at Nordstrom’s for a special dress for the … Continue reading
January 27, 2011
by TRatner
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November 25, 2010 It’s Thanksgiving day. I’m slow to wake, not wanting to think about the recent death of my husband, wanting to drift into a deeper sleep and dream about what was, what might have been. I think about … Continue reading