November 11, 2013
by TRatner
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The Upside of Loss

This is where the past and the future meet. This is after my mother was killed by a speeding car, after my son died in a motorcycle accident, and after my husband passed away from esophageal cancer. It’s years after … Continue reading

August 10, 2013
by TRatner
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Ten Things \ Part Two

Five When he ate malted-milk balls, he sucked the chocolate off first. Thinking you weren’t watching, he’d roll the candies from one side of his mouth to the other, making the sort of tiny noises you’d imagine a chipmunk would … Continue reading

August 10, 2012
by TRatner
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Across the Street

The man in the house across the street is dying. I began to notice it two years ago when he suddenly stopped coming around to do chores such as raking, fixing electrical outlets that weren’t in working order, painting rotted … Continue reading

February 6, 2012
by TRatner
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A Study in Morbidity

A Study in Morbidity   The Last Photo My husband died November of 2010, at 2:04 p.m.—one week before Thanksgiving. I know the time because when he took his last breath, for some reason, I glanced up at the clock. … Continue reading

January 6, 2012
by TRatner
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Looking Back Part II

Looking Back Part II  The beginning of the end Two weeks before my husband was admitted to inpatient hospice, he experienced an increase in bone pain. His daily medications were no longer easing his discomfort. I remember the initial comment … Continue reading

January 31, 2011
by TRatner
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Cameleon

  A NEW YEAR  December 19, 2010 Tonight is the Macayo holiday party—a catered affair on Camelback Mountain which Michael and I have attended for the past twelve years. I plan to shop at Nordstrom’s for a special dress for the … Continue reading