October 28, 2015
by TRatner
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My Addiction I’m addicted to ancestry.com. It started innocently with a free two-week membership and an occasional quick search every couple of days. But then an hour or two of researching turned into five, six, or seven. It became a … Continue reading
August 10, 2012
by TRatner
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Let the Sighs Begin You might feel a gradual welling up of pleasure, or boredom, or misery. Whatever the emotion, it’s more abundant than you ever dreamed. You can no more contain it than your hands can cup a … Continue reading
August 10, 2012
by TRatner
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The man in the house across the street is dying. I began to notice it two years ago when he suddenly stopped coming around to do chores such as raking, fixing electrical outlets that weren’t in working order, painting rotted … Continue reading
February 6, 2012
by TRatner
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A Study in Morbidity The Last Photo My husband died November of 2010, at 2:04 p.m.—one week before Thanksgiving. I know the time because when he took his last breath, for some reason, I glanced up at the clock. … Continue reading
September 9, 2011
by TRatner
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Immersed in Music I sit here clicking keys on my computer, listening to the melody of my own rhythms, trying to make sense out of my new life. The stereo is playing the soundtrack from The King’s Speech, a gentle … Continue reading
July 19, 2011
by TRatner
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MY MARRIED LIFE IN PHOTOS This is my husband and myself when we were happy—-*********************************** I’m married in the above photo. The pose is one of contentness as I surround myself with flowers in full bloom. My son-in-law took the photo at Michael’s surprise 65th birthday party—before … Continue reading
January 31, 2011
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January 1,2010 It’s the first day of the New Year. Just yesterday, I thought I was doing well, adjusting to the loss of losing my husband. I answered a questionnaire sent to me in the mail from Hospice of the Valley. … Continue reading
January 31, 2011
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A NEW YEAR December 19, 2010 Tonight is the Macayo holiday party—a catered affair on Camelback Mountain which Michael and I have attended for the past twelve years. I plan to shop at Nordstrom’s for a special dress for the … Continue reading
January 27, 2011
by TRatner
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November 25, 2010 It’s Thanksgiving day. I’m slow to wake, not wanting to think about the recent death of my husband, wanting to drift into a deeper sleep and dream about what was, what might have been. I think about … Continue reading
August 1, 2010
by TRatner
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I have read so many books . . . . And yet, like so many other bibliophiles—bookworms, I am never quite sure of what I have gained from them. There are times when I feel I have been able to … Continue reading