August 10, 2012
by TRatner
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Let the Sighs Begin You might feel a gradual welling up of pleasure, or boredom, or misery. Whatever the emotion, it’s more abundant than you ever dreamed. You can no more contain it than your hands can cup a … Continue reading
February 6, 2012
by TRatner
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A Study in Morbidity The Last Photo My husband died November of 2010, at 2:04 p.m.—one week before Thanksgiving. I know the time because when he took his last breath, for some reason, I glanced up at the clock. … Continue reading
January 6, 2012
by TRatner
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Looking Back Part II The beginning of the end Two weeks before my husband was admitted to inpatient hospice, he experienced an increase in bone pain. His daily medications were no longer easing his discomfort. I remember the initial comment … Continue reading
November 2, 2011
by TRatner
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October 5, 2011 The Last Dance It’s not for me to say you love me; It’s not for me to say you’ll always care. Oh, but here for the moment, I can hold you fast And press your lips … Continue reading
September 22, 2011
by TRatner
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The Sky is the Limit Keep in motion. Don’t break promises. Grieving is self-pity, narcissism. Don’t give in. Each day I set myself a common goal: to get through the day. Isn’t this the fundamental principle of Alcoholics Anonymous? One day … Continue reading
September 9, 2011
by TRatner
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Immersed in Music I sit here clicking keys on my computer, listening to the melody of my own rhythms, trying to make sense out of my new life. The stereo is playing the soundtrack from The King’s Speech, a gentle … Continue reading
August 4, 2011
by TRatner
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Unexpected Treasures mag·net (m g n t) n. An object that is surrounded by a magnetic field and that has the property, either natural or induced, of attracting iron or steel. An electromagnet. A person, a place, an object, … Continue reading
July 19, 2011
by TRatner
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MY MARRIED LIFE IN PHOTOS This is my husband and myself when we were happy—-*********************************** I’m married in the above photo. The pose is one of contentness as I surround myself with flowers in full bloom. My son-in-law took the photo at Michael’s surprise 65th birthday party—before … Continue reading
January 31, 2011
by TRatner
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January 1,2010 It’s the first day of the New Year. Just yesterday, I thought I was doing well, adjusting to the loss of losing my husband. I answered a questionnaire sent to me in the mail from Hospice of the Valley. … Continue reading
January 31, 2011
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A NEW YEAR December 19, 2010 Tonight is the Macayo holiday party—a catered affair on Camelback Mountain which Michael and I have attended for the past twelve years. I plan to shop at Nordstrom’s for a special dress for the … Continue reading